Streamlining Life..

30 09 2007

That’s the phrase that’s apt so far for my stay in Bangalore. Even as I am typing the title, it sounded awkward… Yet, this title is resonating in my mind since morning and I have to let it out! 🙂 Is that what’s happening with me? There are a lot of changes that happened in my life in the recent times.. So much has changed, yet as always, so little out of it has actually mattered.

I have had hectic travel, a tiring house hunt session, suffered a lot with pangs of relocation and loneliness, cursed fate, bid goodbyes to some close friends, fought with loved ones, experienced breach of trust in a big way and I couldn’t shield myself and my family from wasting emotions for some people who weren’t worth a dime.

On the positive note, I thought a lot on the utility of spine, marriage, trust, values, and all sorts of cosmic questions :-), did a lot of mental training and my part of lending an ear for a couple of friends, met a couple of online pals for the first time, shed laziness and became a regular to gym, enjoyed a couple of angel dreams and poems, rediscovered the solitary solitude of long walks (now am walking a minimum of 5 km every day, and no am not counting treadmill! :-)) and yes the best part now is home food and the aloo parathas, as they sound blissful after eight years of binging out! (Cooked by our cook of course, as my culinary skills are not that appetizing).

They say that life is the toughest teacher for it takes the test first and offers lessons later. Reflecting back, the biggest lesson in this past one month is that no one ever does anything uncharacteristic of what they are. Either they inherit those values or they don’t. It is sheer foolishness to offer trust and do an emotional commitment on spineless souls hoping they would change some day.

Order In Chaos

27 08 2007

Life is settling into a comfortable rhythm.. I am in Bangalore finally! And I regret that why haven’t I explored this city earlier! The weather is an absolute bliss, an absolute welcome change from the hot and humid Chennai climate. People are warm, friendly and chilled out. And I realized that my mother tongue ‘Telugu’ can give me an advantage in this city, unlike the other places that I have been, or lived. I am seven days old in this city and I guess am aready loving the place. So what if the roads are stiff crowded by honkering autos and buzzing cars. I just love the cool breeze and the ‘about to rain anytime’ kind of pretense that the weather carries. I am actually rediscovering the joy of the long walks in this chilled cocoon of comfort.

I have had a sad experience checking out the paying guest accommodations in the city. People live in bunk beds, and cramped living spaces. I just wonder how can people accommodate such degree of forced intimacy in those space challenged hostels.

Let me thank chance, networks, luck or God, for I could finally find a peaceful dwelling at the BTM Layout which is just a stone’s throwaway from my office. Life seems beautiful and balanced now as I soak in the fresh morning sun from the veranda which opens into a glorious sight of sun kissed flowers in the morning.

Life has gained some semblance after the hectic humdrum that happened in the recent times. I have been away from keyboard, music and books for long grappling with the mounting chaos. Looking back am amazed, though so much has changed in life, so little of it has actually mattered.

Robert Kincaid’s this quote from ‘Bridges of Madison County’ has been quite a source of comfort when I was going through the hectic pace of resignation, relocation, house hunt and shift. Here is how it goes.. “Things change. They always do, it’s one of the things of nature. Most people are afraid of change, but if you look at it as something you can always count on, then it can be a comfort.”